I started this blog again for the sole reason to hopefully find "fellowship" with like minded believers. I have missed having some semblance of support, even though while plugged into the organized system was some what borg-ish (understood probably only by at least semi-trekies). I wasn't sure if it was possible to feel that connection or not, and even kind of afraid that I would, if that makes a bit of sense. To make a possible long story short, I did! And I am very grateful to the people who have reached out and been a hand of the "Church" to me. I have long felt that the church was so much more than the organizations that I have for so long been apart of but was held back by controlling propaganda, and my own fears. The love of Christ that these wonderful people in the blog world who have extended their hearts and experiences to me has shown me that what my heart cried to my mind is true, and I have learned an all new way of listening to the song Amazing Grace, as a particular line has taken all new meaning "I once was blind but now I see" (not to mention Chris Tomlin's "my chains are gone" version, a new favorite). I don't feel alot better, but I do feel a bit stronger (thanks to the support of my dear wife, and the rest of you). We are going to go and watch a movie tonight with my mom and aunts, please pray for me if you see this before 7-ish tonight to keep a firm grasp on my emotions and display some sort of control, I don't want to engage in any sort of spiritual discussion but I know what happens when remarks are made that open old wounds. Thank you for your prayers.
Ron
Friday, October 31, 2008
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Ron,
Except my wife and I, there is not a single soul in our family and extended family who would understand our current spiritual position. The relatives are very skeptical and sometimes abusive towards us since we left their 'dead' religion. They think we are doomed. But we know where we are!
Few months ago, I had a (verbal) fight with my Dad (not that I wanted to but it got messy) on the issue of faith. I am totally surprised at the ignorance people hold on to when it comes to their denominations and traditions.
These days we (my wife and I) are not looking for others approval because we know that we have 100% approval of God and we are satisfied with that.
I had been very aggressive towards people who would try to put me back into legalism, but these days I am rethinking about the kind of response I should have towards such people. Winning an argument is not necessarily is going to win their hearts. Only love can win their heart. In my flesh I have NO ability to love but there is one who is living in me who can love others regardless of their agreements/disagreements and His name is Jesus. So, I would go with an attitude that I would let Jesus love them through me. Only he can do it (especially in tough times).
Ron,
You are not alone in that boat. Like Bino, I too find myself in a very different place spiritually, in terms of my parents. Sigh... So, I do understand the pain when people you're close to, just simply cannot open their hearts to understanding. Although my parents certainly are not riling against me, but rather taking a "let's just not talk about Religion" stance, some comments are made on their end that are passive-aggressive (implied) in nature, and nonetheless, hurt.
Nevertheless, I too, know that my identity, value, worth comes solidly from the acceptance and Love of our Heavenly Father.
So, my friend, again, I'm truly happy that you have re-began blogging. May you soon discover there is a beautiful community who are walking a similar Journey as you, and may your heart be touched and blessed by us.
Blessings to you and Anne,
~Amy :)
http://amyiswalkinginthespirit.blogspot.com
Bino,
Thank you for sharing that, its good to not feel alone in those struggles, what you said reminds me of a Steve Brown artical we read today. In it he said, "There is great freedom in not having to be right or good. And most religionists have to a need to be right." When I get into a talk with a "religionist" it is (at the time anyway) inevitable that their need to be right mentality will flare and when it does mine does to. I look forward to being in the place where I to can put this into a better perspective and let the love of the Father carry me through it without argument or tension. I pray it will be sooner than later. Thanks again for sharing.
Ron
Amy,
I'm glad not to be in the boat alone, I hate doing all of the paddling lol, and I have indeed already found many dear people like yourself that have been a great inspiration and blessing to me, helping me to look forward to what the Father has in store for my wife and I.
Ron
Ron,
I'm genuinely glad to meet another who's on this unbelievable journey. I hope to be a part of that fellowship you (and I) need right now.
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